the worst dreams

are the ones where you want someone to love you and touch you and they won't and then you wake up and think "why was I so sure that making them watch me fuck someone else was a gentle way to prove that they also want me" and then you wake up more and slowly realize that your bizarre sleep situations are just exaggerations and misinterpretations of the real-life human thought process, ALWAYS.  

I swam home from class today.  

Am trying a long-shot for another job I actually want but am scared to hope.  

Am hoping anyway, thanks Pandora you slllut.