got worried

today that wanting something real bad is just a form of narcissism.  Like, when you want something so bad you feel like you deserve it, and there is only one wicked obstacle in your way, you're really just thinking too highly of yourself.

Then I convinced myself it was okay, and I was overcomplicating a basic human thing into a dual cruelty.  Try to stop "wanting," try to find peace and respite from needing a something-or-other, and knowing it will please you.