Tuesday, March 27, 2012


last week i said to someone harmony is my gift,
they said, you're good at harmonizing, and i said, it is my gift.
i was joking like most things i say
but i keep thinking about how
context-less i fold in on myself
and without someone else's well-being
to worry about, the sensations/memories of things that really plowed deep scars through me rise again, gently this time, almost sweetly.  lately all of these things point back to my womanness in the world.  it's surfacing like a long-sunken battleship whenever i write.  it doesn't feel like i should stop it.

i feel so threatened and ecstatic every day i live
i have never not been an object
even to my own self
it's troubling

i started a list titled "GOALS"
but so far it's only
errands and consumer goods


sars said...

"When the Jewish midrash (explanations of the bible) were being composed, it was held that God originally produced a male and a female leviathan, but lest in multiplying the species should destroy the world, he slew the female, reserving her flesh for the banquet that will be given to the righteous on the advent of the Messiah (B. B. 74b)." [via]

sars said...

lol what

fatally born said...

sea monster yay.